One of my old dogs died last year, her name was Sandy. She was 15, black lab. Before she died she started to slim down a lot, she couldn't control her bowels anymore. It hurt my mom more than anyone to have to bring her to the vet to be put down. Her ashes are in our living room, she was like family, and so are our other dogs. My little wiener dog Heidi is around 10, I know she only has a few years left. Losing pets suck, if you get attatched, it can be really hard to let them go. As I'm typing she jumped up on my lap. So, I know how you feel man, just hang in there, we have pictures of Sandy up on our wall now, when she was well, remember all the good times you had man.