I for one have never been in a relationship, but for one yes I have liked girls such.
I guess this can't be classified as a "break up" on how this goes, but more or less "I wanted to go out with you but you never told me something" sought of style.
About 2years ago, I met a girl called Vanessa. Her hair was black, she was hot (well, who else doesn't like hot chicks
). It wasn't exactly jsut based on that note alone however. I always got along with her pretty well when ever i'd see her. When I started going to tafe and was on my lunch break (this was during the period of teh school holidays), she was on her way to work and she came to speak to me various times, & i'd always walk past here work and we would wave at one another. This week alone, we saw each otehr 3 or 4 times doing the same things, me getting lunch and her gonig to work (ethier starting work or on some work requirements before she started her shift or would go do something else in the mall). One afternoon I was planning to ask her out, and I did see her taht afternoon. We walked into the center and I stodd buy while she was talknig to some of her friends, however they were there for a period of time and then after a bit I then walked of. they said there goodbyes and when I looked down she had just gone up the escerlator. I am sure she figured out on that day that I liked her.
The next week had passed and her school had been to camp at collaroy, & on the weekend I went to go get some take away from her work. We spoke and she mentioned to me at that moment that she had been on a camp with her school to collaroy. When I was only 7yrs of age, I nearly drowned at collaroy beach. My Dad rushed into to try and save me, however he himself got washed away in the rip and drowned.
I was a little stunned by this delvelopment, it hit me as a coincidence right off. I chose not to tell her about this knowing that there could be the drastic possibility Of her sayying no for this particular coincidence.
A few days passed and we still got along, however I could never really figure how to ask her out witch was being my own problem. If I got rejected and people that bum around the area she works in would possibly come bag the crap out of me and hold the fact of her sayying no against me in such awkward ways.
During some period of the next few days I noticed some change in Vanessa and I felt like some annoyance to her. I really didn't notice this untill I thought about it, as I just assumed she was having a tiring day. I then on one of those days ran into one of her ex boyfriend's best friends who I use to know when I was younger. He told me that Vanessa was a ****ing dog (he also mentioned that he has seen me speaking with her at times too). I chose not to belive his opinion too, considering the fact that he did a lot of drugs at the time too.
Then the same day, I ran into one of my other friends, Saeed. I had known Saeed for atleast a year or so, he was mates with my best mate & he also was mates with one of my close family friends. We went into a clothing store to look at some clothes & a few other things. She was there and before I noticed he walked off and behind me there was him & Vanessa. Vanessa asked him "do you know if he really likes me", I don't know as to what his reply to her question was exactly but then she said "I don't want to break his heart". Saeed did not tell me this untill a week or so later, and it snapped me apart on the inside that she did not tell me. Given that time period I still spoke to her and got along with her up untill the point Saeed revealed this to me, & some days she would act all happy and some all tired & bothered. She still continued to say hi and stuff. Then, I happened to overhear stuff from people that she was being a complete ***** and sayying crap about me. She accused me of stalking (even though we would both to talk to each other, and i'm not the type to stalk anyone), She had insulted my surname aswell (my last name is walker) & she went & *****ed about it to the whole of brigidine, the catholic school she goes to.
My brother's girlfriend use to go to that school and had a few people keep an ear out on the crap she was sayying. A few other people I also know who go to the school also kept an eye out on the situation. I am honest I guess in the fact that I did still have feelings for her, but could somewhat accept the fact, but with all that was going on I began to brake apart on the inside rapidly. It hurt so much just to think such things were happening, & that the people I seemed to get along with and trust started to backstabb me.
The worst part was yet to come. AJ, one of my best mates apparently went up to Vanessa on the train back home to his place and he went up to her and said "Oh your'e Vanessa aren't you? I heard you wanted to have sex with Roland". He did this i'm guessing when he was drug ****ed, he promised his family ages ago he wouldn't do drugs again ages ago and he got back onto them and messed his life up yet again, & this time backstabbing me.
I saw Saeed again not long after this happened, I was telling him all the stuff that was upsetting me as he asked how I was. Then we went outside and then she comes up and he goes and speaks to her, I was sitting near by. I then overheard saeed mention the story about AJ and then they made jokes about me and laughed about me. I felt like I really should of gone up there and ripped there heads off but I didn't. A few days afterwards I went up to her work all pissed off at her & said to her "YOU CATHOLIC FAKE!!!!" & then I mentioned to her that I was aware of what she said to saeed, she said "what did I say?" & I replied "I think you know what i'm talking about, you said it so you should remember".
I can say this situation has torn me up a lot, the same christmas last year I couldn't really bear to face my father's grave (his birthday is on the 24th). It's been a while since this all happened, but I can say yes it still does affect me in some ways. Sometimes she will look at me with different expression on her face when she sees me, some seem worried & some seem to be deciving looks. It just makes me ask myself questions from time to time, but mostly I don't even bother thinking about it anymore.