I've been having a lot of thought about this, and came to conclusion of me needing to tell it to all of you.
Back when I joined the esf forums, in august of 2006 , this place was awesome. I feel like I joined at the best possible time. There were 20+ active threads daily, as well as hundreds of members. I felt like I would not be taken seriously at first, simply because of my age.
I decided to lie it, giving a display of 16 when in reality, I was 14.
Like said earlier, I felt that I wouldn't be taken seriously if I put 14 , and 16 felt more appropriate at that time.
I thought, that it wouldn't be such a big deal, and that I wouldn't 'grow' in to the community and that I'd leave soon because everyone would ridicule me.
Well, then the forums went down and I decided that it was time for me to leave. Some of you may even remember , that I did a new thread about it when the forums came back up.
Then I realized , that I missed being able to participate in to posting. This was actually my first time ever, where I wasn't flamed to ground and forced to leave because of self-misery and pity.
Even during my absence, I browsed the forums very regularly , so I came back.
So whether you like or not, I am part of the community just like you others are. I realize, that most of you don't like me , and would like me to leave , but please - just ignore me. I don't hate most of you, and the ones that I do ; I just simply ignore them in all the possible ways.
Lying my age was idiotic. Now I feel, that all of you needed to know this, and I'm even quite sure that most of you already somehow knew that I actually wasn't an adult yet by the choices I've made, and how my actions have generally reflected towards my immaturity.
I now, however, come forth and tell you , as I've had a lot of thought about it. It may not be a big deal, but I was disgusted and bothered by my lie.
If you, decide to reject me - I can completely understand that.
However, if you still accept me here , and by no means are willing to belittle me after this, I appreciate it.
I'm putting my reputation at risk here, but that is a risk worth taking.
All I'm asking for is a second chance. After all, we're all but humans , and humans do mistakes.
Just want to thank all of you for letting me have this fantastic experience. And most of all, thank you for reading ( and trying to understand ).
Back when I joined the esf forums, in august of 2006 , this place was awesome. I feel like I joined at the best possible time. There were 20+ active threads daily, as well as hundreds of members. I felt like I would not be taken seriously at first, simply because of my age.
I decided to lie it, giving a display of 16 when in reality, I was 14.
Like said earlier, I felt that I wouldn't be taken seriously if I put 14 , and 16 felt more appropriate at that time.
I thought, that it wouldn't be such a big deal, and that I wouldn't 'grow' in to the community and that I'd leave soon because everyone would ridicule me.
Well, then the forums went down and I decided that it was time for me to leave. Some of you may even remember , that I did a new thread about it when the forums came back up.
Then I realized , that I missed being able to participate in to posting. This was actually my first time ever, where I wasn't flamed to ground and forced to leave because of self-misery and pity.
Even during my absence, I browsed the forums very regularly , so I came back.
So whether you like or not, I am part of the community just like you others are. I realize, that most of you don't like me , and would like me to leave , but please - just ignore me. I don't hate most of you, and the ones that I do ; I just simply ignore them in all the possible ways.
Lying my age was idiotic. Now I feel, that all of you needed to know this, and I'm even quite sure that most of you already somehow knew that I actually wasn't an adult yet by the choices I've made, and how my actions have generally reflected towards my immaturity.
I now, however, come forth and tell you , as I've had a lot of thought about it. It may not be a big deal, but I was disgusted and bothered by my lie.
If you, decide to reject me - I can completely understand that.
However, if you still accept me here , and by no means are willing to belittle me after this, I appreciate it.
I'm putting my reputation at risk here, but that is a risk worth taking.
All I'm asking for is a second chance. After all, we're all but humans , and humans do mistakes.
Just want to thank all of you for letting me have this fantastic experience. And most of all, thank you for reading ( and trying to understand ).
