I never new this kind of surgery was
this safe, but you proved me wrong. By making decisions like these it's sometimes a sign you're allowing yourself to grow from the inside--something's telling you that you're desperately wanting to be happy. I know of those forcefields, you can't move forward until you've broken certain barriers - this is one of them, and I'm sure it'll boost your self-esteem through the roof, probably so high we won't see much of you anymore. You'll be too busy enjoying some of the things you've missed out on. I can sympathize with a lot of insecurity things, so I wouldn't try to talk you out of anything. Buddy, good luck to you, break through that barrier!